Today I did something completely for myself, something so unlike me I still can't believe I did it: I had some "untraditional" photos taken. They were tasteful, nothing weird, but still so unbelievably not me.
About a month ago while perusing the internet, I came across a site called lonestarpinup.com (they were featured as being part of a woman's expo in the Fort Hood area). The site featured women of all shapes, sizes, and ethnicities who have been made up in 40's-50's glam hair, makeup, and wardrobe; I knew immediately I wanted to do it. Despite the potential for Glamour-Shotty ridiculousness, this place was legit.
It would have been so much more fun to go with a group of girls. I'm so uncomfortable in front of the camera, honestly. I do post a lot of pictures on facebook, but it's usually because I'm so damn excited at having taken a decent photo! So really though, taking pictures is hard for me. I've always had body image issues, never having liked my red hair, freckles, uber-white skin. Throw ever-creeping crow's feet, seemingly more uneven teeth, and age spots into the mix and conditions are ripe for an ultra underconfident session. Even though I had misgivings about being pinup girl material (nevermind what my MOTHER would say), I decided to keep the appointment.
The studio turns out some great work, and I truly think that is part of the appeal- you see how they've turned everyday women into these bombshells; every woman deserves to feel like that at least once in her life. I don't really know what I was expecting. The studio was small, a little on the messy side, didn't smell all that great, and the atmosphere was forced rather than friendly. Don't get me wrong, I loved my hair and make up, sort of liked the USO-themed outfit (it was Army - blah), but something just didn't feel right. And I realized, as I'm terrified in 6-inch patent leather red heels and an uber short skirt with my ass sticking out, that it's really about confidence and being comfortable with who you are- two things I've eternally sucked at!! Who did I think I was, Bettie Page? Ha!
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